Tagged with recovery

The Not-So-Good Ol’ Days

Ian and I drove past a restaurant the other day. I don’t remember the name of it. We only went there once, a long time ago. It hit me how much has changed since we were there. The anxiety starts gnawing at my stomach the second he suggests going there. I don’t know what kind … Continue reading

Monday Morning Truth: Do You Want to be Healed?

In a sermon a few weeks ago, one of the pastors at my church preached on the story of the invalid in John 5. I’ve read it before (many times), but he drew some things out of the text that I had never considered…things that really struck home with me. “Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem … Continue reading

Monday Morning Truth: Fear of Feelings

I had a perfectly happy Saturday morning. Seriously. One of those mornings dotted with sighs of contentment because everything seems exactly right. Then a few hours later I found myself staring despondently out the window, trying not to cry, and thinking, I feel bad inside. Really bad. I didn’t know what caused the shift. I just … Continue reading

We Are Wounded

Life is incredibly difficult. The difficulties may take different forms for each of us, but all of our hearts ache from painful, unfulfilled should have beens. Or maybe it’s the should NOT have beens that have left the deepest wounds. Maybe it’s because something was taken from us, or maybe it’s because we gave pieces of ourselves away. … Continue reading

Perfectionism Series: Give Yourself Time

The thing about healing and recovering is that it’s usually slow progress, and it’s marked by setbacks and confusion and pain. A lot of pain. Spoiled by an instant-everything society, we want fast fixes. This is especially true for people like me who think that we should do everything perfectly–including healing–and that means healing almost instantaneously. “I should not still … Continue reading

My 5 Rules of Eating Disorder Recovery

1) I will not rush recovery. I will give myself whatever time I need to heal properly and wholly. And I will not be angry with myself for how long it takes. 2) I will not expect healing to be a straight path. There are going to be bad days and setbacks and temptations to give up. But … Continue reading