Tagged with Fear

The Not-So-Good Ol’ Days

Ian and I drove past a restaurant the other day. I don’t remember the name of it. We only went there once, a long time ago. It hit me how much has changed since we were there. The anxiety starts gnawing at my stomach the second he suggests going there. I don’t know what kind … Continue reading

A Not Very Valentine’s Day Post

I hadn’t really planned on posting anything today, but I randomly came across a song this morning that’s really digging in. A splinter in my heart, so to speak. Because this song is like an anthem for those of us who’ve had to walk away from someone we cared about because they’re so broken, a … Continue reading

Perfectionism: Good or Bad? (Part 2)

It took a while, but here’s the follow up to Perfectionism: Good or Bad? (Part 1). #6. You’re a people-pleaser. We find people not liking or approving of us borderline unbearable, so we have trouble setting appropriate boundaries. We end up saying yes to requests and accepting treatment that we secretly resent. We might make … Continue reading

Why Not Just Forget It?

Most of us deal with our past in two ways. Either we get stuck there and let the wounds from it fester and spread infection, or we try to forget our past and minimize its impact on our lives. Most of the time, when I think about my past marriage, it’s like thinking about a … Continue reading

Getting in the Ring with Life

Come Friday, I’m unofficially unemployed. I applied a month or so ago for my dream job, but I found out yesterday that though I made their decision “incredibly difficult,” they ultimately chose another candidate. Once again, I felt huddled in the corner, unsuccessfully trying to avoid a bloody lip from Life’s foot. When does it get better, get … Continue reading

Monday Morning Truth: Do You Want to be Healed?

In a sermon a few weeks ago, one of the pastors at my church preached on the story of the invalid in John 5. I’ve read it before (many times), but he drew some things out of the text that I had never considered…things that really struck home with me. “Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem … Continue reading

Monday Morning Truth: Come out of Hiding

So much of the time, I feel overwhelmed by life. It’s a powerful river dragging me downstream, moving me in directions that I can’t predict, can’t control. It occasionally yanks me under by the ankle—cold, muddy water rushing into my mouth and nose, choking me, causing me to sputter and spit when I finally manage to … Continue reading

Monday Morning Truth: Fear of Feelings

I had a perfectly happy Saturday morning. Seriously. One of those mornings dotted with sighs of contentment because everything seems exactly right. Then a few hours later I found myself staring despondently out the window, trying not to cry, and thinking, I feel bad inside. Really bad. I didn’t know what caused the shift. I just … Continue reading

We Are Wounded

Life is incredibly difficult. The difficulties may take different forms for each of us, but all of our hearts ache from painful, unfulfilled should have beens. Or maybe it’s the should NOT have beens that have left the deepest wounds. Maybe it’s because something was taken from us, or maybe it’s because we gave pieces of ourselves away. … Continue reading

Some Things are Worth the Risk

There once was a girl who walked along the road, her head lowered and her heart stinging with the pain of how the people in her life—even the best of them—would at times disappoint her, neglect her, and hurt her. And it struck her heavily that to be in relationship is to be hurt. As people go … Continue reading